|This is my sister and I on New Year's Eve, 1995.|
Have you read the book "Hinds' Feet on High Places" by Hannah Hurnard? It's the story of Much-Afraid on a journey away from her fearful family into the Shepherd's "High Places." She's given two companions along the way. They are Sorrow and Suffering. At first they are dreadful to look upon! Indeed, how many times do we cower in fear in the face of Sorrow and Suffering? Naturally, no one wants to take the hands of these two sisters, Sorrow and Suffering. At first, the grasp of their hands is excruciating.
As a child of God, I've been on a journey too. This journey has had its share of ups and downs, but it wasn't until 1997 that I was first introduced to Sorrow and Suffering. At the time I did not realize that Sorrow and Suffering were to be my new sisters. But you see, God did. When He suddenly took my 22 year old sister, Sherri, home to be with Him, He replaced her with two more sisters: Sorrow and Suffering. They've been with me ever since. Sherri's loss came without any warning; we couldn't prepare. . .it just happened, but in my eyes, it seemed like "it SHOULDN'T have happened!" Even though I still don't have the answers as to "why," the Lord has been faithful to reveal some good that has happened as a result of her untimely death.
Every year, as the anniversary of her passing would come around, I'd take "the good that came from her loss" which He had begun to reveal to me and mentally place that "good" on an imaginary scale. Then I'd place the grief of losing my sister on the other side. For many years Sorrow and Suffering would tip the scales...The grief from losing Sherri far outweighed any good that God had brought from her loss.
Like clockwork, another year would roll by, and still, the good never outweighed the bad. But deep down, a tiny glimmer of faith that He would bring more good out of this devastating loss kept me hanging on to hope. "My child, this too shall be worked out for thy good and My glory, if you allow Me to." (Rom. 8:28)