Been quiet lately...doing some thinking, seeking, praying....listening. Have you ever felt like a sheep that didn't want to leave the comfort of the fold? I actually chuckle at the sight of that sentence, and the image it conjures up in my mind: A fold---full of sheep, all shapes and sizes, squooshed next to each other. Lots of "bleating" and moving around with no where to go. But for some reason, the idea of being all cozy next to my fellow sheep, "fenced in" by the strong border I'm USED TO, just feels comfortable. Today I think my Shepherd is calling...He's calling my name. And here I am...shy, scared to go OUT that open door. He's there, of course---standing before me.
What's ironic is, on one hand I've been feeling frustrated because He's not LED US as a WHOLE group anywhere, but on the other hand He revealed to me, "Dear lamb, YOU'RE the reason we're still here....you've got to COME OUT. Follow Me." Notice the verse again: "He has brought out all his own, he goes on ahead of them, and his sheep follow him because they know his voice." (NIV) When He has brought out ALL His own, He goes on ahead and leads them. Everyone has to come out of the fold! That would include...me.
Dear Shepherd, are You waiting on me? Am I the only one sitting in the fold, scared to leave the comfort of this fold? And silly ole me, the comfort really is cramped quarters, not meant to remain there constantly. I HAVE TO come out and Graze and Listen to Your voice in order to Grow stronger and Learn of Your faithfulness. It's time to move out in to green pastures and Follow, Feed, and enjoy Freedom. I'm so sorry for being scared to move. I'm so thankful for Your tenderness in leading me. Sometimes I need You to scoop me up in Your arms and carry me...but I know that at OTHER times You want me to move on my own feet...for in moving, that proves my faith in You. Thank You, tender Shepherd for loving me. In Your name I pray, Amen.